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Remus,
I'll get duty that day to watch Snape's place, but be careful. I don't want to see you arrested again, and with all the new charges they have waged against you... Just be gone before six okay. And we are even. No more favors.
-Tonks
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R,
I wouldn't be surprised, they are probably intercepting my owls anyway.
-S
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So melodramatic Severus,
Are you still at your parents house on Spinner's End? If I promise to behave can I come see you? Is your house being watched?
-Remus
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Probably not.
My apparating lisence has been revoked, I can't leave the country, my wand has been confiscated and the magical flux around my place of residence is being closely monitored, and if it spikes... I assume a swarm of aurors will ascend upon me. So basically I have been locked in my own house, thank-you Potter, for saving me from certain death.
Severus
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Severus,
I don't usually get the wizarding news, but Harry owled me. What are the terms of your probation? How free of a man are you? Would I be able to see you in person without being hauled off to prison?
Remus
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Oh, don't get me wrong. I still hate him, I just like him better than the ministry and didn't want to let them win.
Harry
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Harry,
I don't think you made a mistake. Severus probably thinks so, but he always has a hard time forgiving anyone for being even slightly fond of him.
Remus
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Remus,
I wasn't angry anymore. We never talked about that night on the tower. The look I saw in his eye when he cast the unforgivable, the way he insulted my technique when I attacked him... That is the same thing he did every time I attacked him those months in the jungle. It's hard to separate the pieces anymore, but I couldn't go through with it. I couldn't let the ministry have their own way. It reminded me of Sirius. I felt vindicated when he was released, but he was not pleased. Are you on speaking terms? Do you think defending him was the wrong decision?
Harry
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Apparate somewhere safer. I have no access to the ingredients and the timeframe is all wrong.
S.
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S,
I know it's been a long time, but is there any way that you can brew the potion for me again? Harry tracked me down, and though it was nice to see him, I'm not comfortable being that easy to find. I've just been traveling on foot, but the area I'm in now is fairly populated. It's only a little more than a week before the wolf, and I don't want to hurt anyone.
R
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Potter,
What is it with former gryfindors and their obsession with "talking" to me. Write to Remus. He and you have a lot in common.
S.
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Snape,
Yesterday I turned to the person next to me on the street and laughed in their face. All those months, challenging you, thinking I could better you, talking to you by the fire after a duel when neither one of us had the energy to fight anymore left some impressions about the truth of life on my brain. No one else here sees things that way. I refuse to admit I miss talking to you.
Harry
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Remus,

It’s hard to believe that it was only a year ago when I drank an entire bottle of wine and watched you bathe with my bottom lip tucked between my teeth. It seems like that life wasn’t even real.

For what it is worth that is one of my happiest Christmas memories, because for just a minute I could believe there was peace on earth, and life was lighter and less oppressive. For just that minute.

Severus

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S,
I will make no more bold declarations of love. I won't regret that I have never kissed you, though sometimes that was the only thought that kept me moving. There was a time that I would have sworn we were two halves of the same whole. I know I was romanticizing you. We barely know each other. I just wanted it to be true. It wasn't

There is nothing about our history that entitles either of us to a happy ending, but for a while there I was still sort of hoping for one
R

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Remus,
I opened one of the few books that survived all the running, and one of your old letters fell out. Do you remember asking all those whatifs about fifth year? What if we had kissed? What if you had told me the truth about the wolf before I found out like that? I know the answer. I would have made it the perfect excuse to never kiss you again. I would have hurt you Remus. Because I was an arsehole in fifth year. Your friends were all idiots and I was an arse. We were 16 years old Remus. Sixteen year olds are idiots. Sixteen year olds make big mistakes. My big mistakes killed handfuls of people. Circumstance provided me with choices that had heavier consequences than a sixteen year old should have. I made the wrong choices. I fucked up. I would have fucked up if circumstance had given me different choices, Remus, because sixteen year olds fuck up.

I can't sit in a jungle and wait for the day when choices I made half a lifetime ago will catch up to me. I would have to admit I deserve to be punished, and as much as I hate the things I have done in the name of one cause or another, I do not want to die for them. I am not a martyr, because I don't believe in any of this. But for you it's different. When the idiotic werewolf laws are finally stricken and abolished, your name will show up in history of magic books. You are the war hero who lived in the jungle and healed the sick, as long as you stay away from the double agent who murdered the white knight of wizardry.

There is nothing about our history that should prompt declarations of love
Severus
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S,
Once I learned the basics of the language, it actually wasn't that hard to find a village to take me in. I'm an average healer, and don't mind being caged during the full moon. They don't think much of the British minister for magic, and all the rights that have been taken away from magical creatures. I am more than accepted here.

So you needn't be sorry
R.

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R,

I am willing to admit a note on your pillow was a bad choice, but I don’t think I could have looked you in the face and still left.

I have discovered that muggles will pay obscene amounts of money for the most innocuous concoctions and will even convince themselves it does whatever they want it to do. I occasionally miss brewing that involves real magic, but the act itself is cathartic. I don’t miss teaching. I do miss you

I hope you aren’t still where I left you.

S.

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You left me a note? You're Sorry? Fuck you Severus. Fuck You
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I'm sorry
S.
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Snape,
Don't know why I am sending you this. I think you are a right bastard and if the ministry got wind of my even attempting to correspond with you I could probably lose my Job. Remus has been arrested. Something went wrong with his transformation, he was attacking the room, trying to escape, and ripping himself apart. The muggle neighbors called the muggle law enforcement, who called something called animal control. He was attacked with some muggle tranquilizing potion, the mediwitches think it was probably too large of a dose and that it had bad reactions with the wolfsbane, because he remained passed out during the reformation and some of his bones did not mend correctly. A half dozen muggles witnessed the reformation, one of them was wounded by the wolf but they aren't sure if he was infected. I don't know what will happen to Remus, the lot of them had to be obliviated, and you know they don't even consider werewolves human. He is sitting in Azkaban awaiting a hearing before the wizengamot. His parents are dead. Harry is gone. You seem like the person to tell. He's hung up on you, you know?
Tonks
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You're welcome to the potion, Remus. If you can find this place of your own means you are welcome to come, just make sure you are not followed. I am sure after telling the ministry that you are in love with me you are going to be watched. I hope hexing me makes you feel better.
Severus
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Severus,
I want to come see you, I don't think I can say this in a letter. I think I want to hit you. I think I want to take turns with Harry hexing you into oblivion.
Remus
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Your Wolfsbane, I finally had the means to make it
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Merlin, Severus!

Don’t do this. I told you I missed you, I told you that you wrecked me, I gave you a bottle of wine for Christmas and asked you if you wanted to join me when I went to bathe in that spring. Did a confession of love surprise you? Talk to me

Remus

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Lupin,
I was trying to figure out how to respond to your "confession" Don't rush me.
S.
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Severus
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